suddenly felt like blogging.. but dunno what to say here.. damn , finally i went down to ubi to book for my car lessons. and guess what! i cant book for my tp! they say my membership has expire and i need to renew them. so, i have to re learn everything! damn! i need the instructor's recommendation in order to book for tp again. argh . so, i straight away book 5 lessons. luckily.. i dont need to wait for so long.. the earliest is this coming thursday! yeah! i want my license badly!! i need a job!! btw.. mummy dont wanna sponser me the money anymore.. so in the end. all my remaining money goes to my car lessons. i'm damn broke!

at night met up with siew siew and ah seng for drinking sessions. drunk again. argh. this time no blood. lucky! haha.

have been drinking everyday!! until my body spoil already. no choice .. its the only medicine to stop thinking about you. i miss you so much. hope you're doing fine. =)

blood all over the toilet bowl, getting out of breath time after time. its like you could feel your heart pumping so hard that every part of your body becomes cold and numb. its like the death god is standing right in front of you, yet you cant see it. at that moment, the first thing that came into my mind is 'her'. how i wish she is just beside me right then caring and comforting, at least i'll feel more relax. but things always dont go the way you want. i miss her so much.


i sense my health is really failing on me. but it doesn't matter anymore. after this incident, a lot of things went through my mind. this is the darker side of the world. cold, selfish , cruel. you cant depend on anyone. only you can help yourself. at least after this, its makes me a stronger person, gives me a stronger mind and most importantly, a stronger heart.

i had a strange dream . this girl i knew her .. but not so close lah. cant tell her name ah .. must confidential a bit haha.. or else rumors will spread. i dreamt that i've fallen in love with her. in this dream , we're a very loving couple.. cant remember much . all i could remember is that all the things we did together are so sweet . its like a match made in heaven . lol. its like so long ago since i had a sweet dream haha. but back to reality. we're just hi bye friends. lol. and being together with her has never even cross my mind. maybe i know its impossible. haha. anyway. i haven had a wink for almost 20 hours already! so.. tata! =)

finally those legendary graxs days are over , and i'm officially jobless. worst is i need to recce for a new place to drink. no more cheap boozes or any ent special prices boozes. haha . the last 2 days at graxs is definitely be a unforgetable trip. a lot of things happen. but, as what people say, forgive but never forget.

recently have been thinking, do i really know you at all ? maybe i don't . i'll never know you.





cause whenever i needed you, you're never there. i'll never forget those painful memories. argh! fuck! going to EMO already. lol. argh. i need a proper life.

recently felt my health is failing , feeling sick every other day . feeling damn sucks. think i should really cut down on booze this time. got lots of other things in my mind, but argh .. cant vent it here.

had a talk with fabian that day, and i found out that we share the same problem . glad that at least someone knows how i feel . its hard to go through this shit, but people just dont understand what we guys are going through. so the only solution is drink drink and drink! maybe this is the reason why fabian starts drinking nowadays. haha. till then!


oh ya! btw , graxs last day is on this coming saturday 11/10/08 . all those regulars peeps, come down support ahh! last day already!!! after that we'll be moving ... but still dunno where. haha . i dont wanna be jobless! cya !

Ken Lim
23 years old

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